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Mon, 06 Jun 2005 18:53:27 GMT

So I went college shopping with Mom today which was an incredible experience, then Chesney and I took a trip to Ellwood to see Jen for a few hours. On the way back, we dismembered Bush/Cheney lawn signs... how democratic of us.

I have a considerable collection of pictures that I’ve finally got around to posting, so look at them because I’m cool. ( We fucked up... we fucked up big. )

Tomorrow is the big sendoff party at Cory’s. My room is a mess of boxes and random shat from wall to wall. Saturday I’ll finish packing and Sunday I’m going to do the damn thing.

rock a little

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 07:28:31 GMT

so it seems that my DVD burner is glitching out on me and i'm not exactly sure why i can't burn DVDs on it using iTunes (aside fromt the obvious being that iTunes is not the best way to burn a data DVD) i know it has the power and my laptop couldn't possibly be that prehistoric as to not be able to cope with DVD burning (even at a super slow speed). more frustrating is that Nero (the DVD burning program i have) realizes the burner is there but refuses to let me use it as a recording drive.

at work i had a fairly normal day, but an over-zealous child managed to jump onto a table and have it land on my foot (right about near the arch) so it's bruised and soar. they thought i was clowning around when i was screaming out in pain, but alas all i really wanted to do at that moment was to say nasty things in japanese at that little 4-yr-old boy. bad habit i picked up in the states was to swear under breath in japanese as a way to avoid swearing in a language that the majority can understand. this becomes a bit ineffective in japan where everyone speaks japanese and understands many english swear words to an extent. it's also discourages to send children out of the class or speak to them in japanese (no matter their age) no matter how misbehaved they get. sadly any sense of order is lost because it's not really a classroom enironment. even so, many of these kids don't regard these lessons as any sort of learning thing at all anyways. it is rewarding to see some of the kids able to understand and pick out english more an more though (it's a highlight on a not so perfect day of teaching kids)

it turns out the mystery money in my account really is mine and i just hadn't updated my passbook at all this past month. it turns out that i have some savings, but i'm reluctant to admit it because i'm really afraid of spending it. i am trying to save a relatively large chunk of cash for various reasons. i'm happy that it's really my money and all th ehard work i've been doing lately finally feels like it's being reflected in my bank account. although i'm going to take a 4 day paycut for my vacation in Novemeber, i'm ststill not as bad off as i thought i was.

i'm over halfway through my New Year's postcards. I've already sent out the ones I've completed so far and am determined to finish the rest by this weekend (my days off as it were). This is turning into quite an enjoyable thing. I think i might design a simple valentine postcard too...i was thinking of going digital this time, but who knows. afterall, it takes me a long time to plan these sorts of things out. It's just a pity that I won't likely be able to ever see any of these cards again, but I hope at least some people will decide to hold onto theirs. It's about the size of a photo, and since it's a postcard it's not quite as bulky as XMas cards. I am feeling a little guilty that i haven't kept every christmas card that i've personally received but i couldn't due to all my moves over the years. it's difficult to track paper when you keep changing addresses almost every year.

overall i must say that i'm happy. of course there are still things i want and hope to do and figure out, but overall i am at peace (pretty cheesy thing to say) but i've been thinking about where i stand and how i feel about my life. of course i always tend to do that around this time of year.
Current Mood: content
Current Music: silence of CD recording (burn baby burn!)

my grandfather

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 06:37:08 GMT

Last Saturday, my grandfather passed away. today , we buried him. Since then, I’ve been trying to come to terms with his passing, and to articulate what it is I’ve been feeling. I have to wonder if maybe it’s because my grandfather was such a private man—his business was his business and you didn’t discuss his business, but I have a hard time trying to put it into words.

But something in me is driving me to put it down anyway. His life was both remarkable and yet unremarkable. No newspaper outside of the local ones carried his obituary. No news crew did a special on him. It wasn’t broadcast on ABC, CBS, or NBC. It wasn’t carried on CNN . And yet, he is remembered and ought to be remembered because he touched so many lives, just because he existed. And so, with difficulty, I am trying to remember him so that you can remember him. I apologize in advance, because I certainly am not able to do him justice.

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 08:09:59 GMT

today's geography paper is not difficult.
in fact it is easy to do well because many questions are repeated.
BUT, blame it on my low self-confidence, i dont' think i'd do well.
spotted the correct questions, got the points right, but my essays are not long enough.
phht.
quantity vs quality. or both.

seriously i can't wait for the exam to end. yes fullstop to all these shitty moodswings and stress!

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 18:19:58 GMT

The presentation was lousy...I was shaking, and you could hear it in my voice. I kept stumbling over my words, spoke at an amazing rate of speed but still managed to ennunciate, though I constantly forgot what to say next, so what was the point of speaking clearly...and then for the questions, I wasn't able to answer a damn one of them...
Pass degree, here I come.

No other news really.
Met Danny off plane. His hair was fluffy. Possible fibbers-ing saturday night for those who'd like to see him.
Miroza didn't wake me up at 6 in the morning like last time...but I think that's more to do with how enamoured of Chris she appears to be...
So tired. I took the day off yesterday to relax after the travesty of the presentation. Such a mistake, I'm so lazy now...tho this could be something to do with getting in from the film at 1am not helping.
Saw Troy...it's bloody excellent! And no, I wasn't just enamoured of the really gorgeous naked Brad Pitt/ Achilles scenes, it really was a damn good movie.
Went into Hickeys to see about part time work for a month of two. No luck. They've just taken someone else on. Which means I'm truly screwed...I can't think of anywhere that's going to take me on for the kind of hours I want to work for just two months. Here's hoping I can make and sell an awful lot of sewing stuff...thank you ebay.
So I bought myself the new lush massage bar "Each Peach" to help myself feel better. Gorgeous thing. So fruity.

And now, to work! *snigger* yeah right

i cant wait for spring break in a few mounths

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 03:41:37 GMT

i be at at matts for all of spring break..

working everynight though...

sall good..

and i think i am going to ithaca new youk .. but idk.

huh

my eye hurts

Sun, 16 Jan 2005 09:08:07 GMT

Cath and Eric's wedding invitations are sooo cute!!

My eye so hurts. It's not fair. I hate styes. Stupid eye.

Wow Allocate+ finally works!! It finally figured out that people try to log in for a reason.
I should realy go wash Kotaz....

random things

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 04:30:18 GMT

Ahoy all. I initially want to thank all the people who responded to my most recent rant, especially people I don't know. Not that I don't appreciate the ones I do know, but it's nice to see random acts of kindness and all that. Anyway I'm in a significantly better mood even though that whole thing with Anthony fell through. Whatever I could so do better than that, right Mish? Oh and Kyle, maybe we could all go iceskating one weekend. I don't know if you and ice get along, but we should find out. Ok switching topics. Sandy I'm really sorry about your friend. I wish I could be all understanding and stuff but I don't know what it's like so all I can do is pray. I'm doing absolutely nothing this break. Just staying home and probably doing a lot of cooking and eating...hehehe. Mish, I had this really weird dream about Nebraska. I woke up all hyperventilating and stuff. Call me if you read this before I tell you

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 22:16:13 GMT

I just thought alos that I would rant a little about the holidays.

OH MY GOD....

I used to be super close to my mother in law, but I don't think I am really anymore. This whole holiday she acted so offended if we took Sylvia to my parents house... she let Sylvia get away with whatever she wanted... she gave her lemonade with her meal when I have always told her that Sylvia drinks water not empty calorie bevarages... and sylvia likes water anyway. She let her eat a cashew, 3 lolipops in 10 minutes before breakfast...

she griped the whole time about everyone, Geoff's other side of the family,t he neighbors, she gave us no privacy, we became sexually frustrated and were at each others throats and she got in the middle of that, and THEN....

the one night we managed to slip out for a little while I got back to lay down with Sylvia and she was burning up- I checked her temp and it was 102.7 which I showed to her AND to Geoff. Geoff commits on how everytime we're in Atlanta she gets sick. His mom says, "there's no way that baby is sick. She can't get sick everytime I watch her" implying that I was making it up because we had gone out. She also told me it was because it was so hot in the rooma nd she had on flannel pajamas. No, in fact it was freezing in that room even to a pregnant woman and that doesn't raise your temp to almost 103.

and also, the one night we slipped out I told her if Julia called to please give her the cell number so we could meet up with her or to get her number so we could call her and make plans (because I forgot to bring her number, so partly my fault really. But there was 10 inches of snow on the ground the day we left so I couldn't remimber to terribly much)and she said she would do so and make sure susie did and well, nope! Julia called and no one got her number or anything!! grrrrrrr

all of this sort of makes me glad we're 12 hours away

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 06:07:57 GMT

I've not had much time to sit and write for the past few weeks. In the midst of all the festivities and working and things there just hasn't seemed to be any proper moment to sit down and tap away at my journal for even a few minutes. So far it's been a weird and kind of crappy start to the year, it must have been an omen as on the stroke of midnight on New Year's I had a nosebleed. I feel a bit trapped in a limbo, but mostly I just feel really down and worn out. It doesn't help when I'm the only one on my side of the department doing the work of two people and getting chucked on the counter when they're busy. I must be a masochist to keep my head down and carry on, but most of the time there's just too much hassle in kicking off. And that's just the work related crap that I'm dealing with in my own unique way. It all feels so unreal sometimes watching things unfold the way they do. In times like these I suppose I just have to hold fast to whatever is keeping me going deep down.

A belated happy new year to everyone.

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 21:06:56 GMT

I've recently taken up the hobby of knitting. I had some yarn lying around the house and I saw some knitting needles at Joann Fabrics, so I decided to give it a shot. So far I've made two scarves, and they turned out okay. Now I think I'd like to try something harder, like a hat or a sweater (but not gloves yet, they're insane). And my friend Neil suggested a book called "Stich 'n' Bitch" for neat patterns and instructions. I just bought it on Barns and Noble .com and it should be delivered some time this week.

Awesome.

I could make something up myself. But with the texture of knits you're kind of limitted. Like, I don't know if you could make a knit mini-skirt or a knit dress. I've seen pictures of knit string bikini's, but something about them makes me think they're to be seen and not actually used in the water. Doesn't wool shrink when it gets wet? Hey, maybe that's half the fun.

It seems like most of the patterns on the internet are the dreaded grandmother fashions. Like the bulky form-hiding vests with multicolored teddy bears and flowers on them, or the huge sweaters that you wear for the comfort and the warmth but definitely not for what they do to your figure. I think I'll look at high fashion for inspiration.

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 07:49:34 GMT

is that sad how excited I get over a phone call?!?!?! lol, it's ok, I was just glad to talk to him for a while. He makes me laugh and all that silly stuff! I love you pookie! Your still my best friend!

anyways - gettin' ready to give my Assypoo a call and wake her up bright and early...for her at least...11am isn't that early for me, but it is for her...lazy thing...

then prolly lounging around the house out of boredom...gonna spend most of the day playing the sims...am I a reject? haha, every time Suri's called me I've been playing the Sims... I swear she prolly thinks I'm the biggest dork she's ever known...

yay! Kat and I have almost closed down on an apartment, there's one she's really interested in and since I have plenty of furniture and stuff, we're both really intrigued. It's a spacious two bedroom apartment on 105 I think that sounds perfect for the two of us! I'll be putting the downpayment on it in January, hopefully if there is a lease that comes up in May or June...hopefully there is

And I'm excited, my hair is actually gettin' long! It's about 3inches past my shoulders, that tickles me to death! I love it!

anyways, time to go harass Ashley! haha
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home sweet home

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 23:51:55 GMT

We arrived back home at 1:30 this afternoon, seventeen hours after I left my mom's house. the rest of the trip, otherwise I would have arrived earlier.
Now begins the much dreaded unpacking process. Who knows when it will end!

More later, after some sleep...Zzzzzzzzzz

thing changes people change but robots do not change

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 19:24:55 GMT

Randomness due to the previous year:

I'm not so sure about growth, but I've re-learned some things my teacher taught me in gradeschool. After my rollercoaster-emo-phase exactly a year ago, I resulted to a range of random phrases (much like now) and 3 paragraphs about inanimate objects and more nonsense.

I'd been asked too many times why I keep an LJ and stay as opaque as I am in real life and resolve to maybe open up a bit to be at least -7%interesting but this entry is proof I barely even tried.

Believe it or not, I am happy. And I said the same thing last year, too.

I found my list of new year's resolutions and thought, "Life used to seem so... slllllllllllllllllllow." Now I wonder when will I hear the clock tick to the next second.

Now I know how I always have new friends and no enemies at all: I forget everything, including the names.

Dad had asked me if I was going out with any of the boys. This year, he asked me in Filipino.

I used to say that I am not a social animal. Now I can say that neither am I a social machine.

I've always known myself to be boring and I'm proud I can be consistent (sometimes).

But seriously, I'm happier now. With much help from the dharmaboys, of course, and the newer friends, and my more defined sense of self-awareness, yes. I never got to say that last year (because I didn't have a journal 2 years back). BUT I AM HAPPY!

(a late)Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all!

omg

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 03:29:18 GMT

I'm getting REALLY, badly irritated by telling this:
I'm not a lune and stop picking on me! This journal was made because I've an account on Gaia called Wise Annie. You can adopt pets there and I got the idea to make a journal to describe the pet's personality so it can make friends with other pets! I'm getting pissed off by you guys who keep telling me that I'm freaked out who think I'm a pet, so tell me what, read the sick first journal entry and look that I've written "BREEDABLE"!
Lyra Polaris is a Raposa who's a mix of fox-cat-dog with wings and I've another pet which is a fish, a Clownfish Beta! So I got the idea to make them more alive and started with a journal! Other people did too! SO STOP WITH YOUR PISSING OFF COMMENTS! She's invisible because the owner of the Raposa shop haven't updated her image yet and yeah, she does have wings! So stop picking on me, would you? I'm getting sick of this, I just wanted to see what others thought about my Lyra Polaris' journal, if the other Raposa owners had replied, and then I get this mass-invasion of pissing off comments!
Yeah, I'm creative, I've great imagination, I'm a psycho! Stop your pissing off comments, I don't have wings, I'm not hatched out of an egg, I'm not having a fish as a sister and I'm not invisible! I'M, FOR THE LAST TIME, NOT A PSYCHO, I HAVEN'T MADE UP A SICK WORLD OR ANYTHING! SO STOP PISSING ME OFF! YOU'RE FILLING MY WHOLE EMAIL ACCOUNT WITH MAILS!

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 20:37:37 GMT

woo hoo! i have a chance to update cuz they all went fishing (boo fishing). so more in depth about things: we saw anchor man. FUNNY MOVIE. go see it. i read this book called "teenage life strategies" by jay mcgraw (that's right dr.phils son, but he actually knew what he was saying) and i think everyone should read it. it made me feel so much better and come to realize that i am controlling and demanding and posessive. i knew about the posessive part but not so much the controlling part. i'm working on it (not well but i am) spencer goes for his license tomorrow. i'm praying for him. i've gotten all the characters in my marvel vs capcom 2 game. i'm so proud of myself! yay me! now all i have to do is get all the galleries and character colors! woo hoo, almost there baby! the other day i was at spencer's house and dave was gonna come over and we were playing my game and his lil sis shut the door for something she was doing in the hall and i took advantage of the situation ;) i had fun. a lot of fun. still a virgin for all of those concerned though (i've decided not until there's a ring on my finger ::looks at hands:: hey there's like 5 rings on my fingers all from him... hm... anyway i meant a real ring folks) i'm going to go back to watching x2 now. i would also like to say this: i take spencer for granted too often. he's so wonderful that i cry thinking about just how incredible he is. i'm his. completely and utterly his. i love everything about him. i treat him horribly and i'm trying my best to give him what he deserves. jedi, i'm sorry. i know i've said it before but i can't apologize enough. i love you and want to spend the rest of my life with you. and only you.

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 05:59:42 GMT

when will the terror end? rats chewing, dogs chewing, dog adolescence, snake poo, love lives, loved ones, costochondritis, emergency rooms, sewage, cluttered apartments, tree roots, spider mites, crying, not being able to sleep, stress, being poor, humidity, georgia, jobs, property managers, toilet paper and poo in my garden, july and the beginning of august, lack of energy all suck.

ray rocks though, go ray.
Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: gurgling stomach

moive updates

Tue, 27 Jul 2004 05:36:56 GMT

More Movies

Legend of Suryothai (B) IT's a thai movie with subtitles. Long, not much to do with suryothai, but in general a watchable movie. I like when cute little child kings get beaten to death with clubs by their uncles.

Bourne Supremacy (A) It was thrilling

Cold Creek Manor (C) I've seen it before, but I watched it again with my family and family's in laws, and it wasn't too bad.

The importance of being Earnest (A) I love that movie so much. You have to watch it with subtitles in order to catch all the witty remarks. And who doesn't like rupert everett?

House of Sand and fog (B) It was good, but gets a b for being so damn depressing. I am a fan of Ben kingsley movies because he always plays such serious/important roles but this was just a downer.

I was hacking away at this tree in my yard with a machete yesterday. It keeps dropping little purple berries into my pool and staining the bottom, so i'm trying to kill the damn thing by stripping it's bark. On one swing, the blade ricocheted off the tree and hit my leg. Just a scratch and a bruise, but it still hurt.

Hooray for Lance Armstrong and his 6th tour de france win. The only reason I care is because i got to read all about him in the june sports illustrated while sitting in the plasma center for an hour. And today in the newspaper i read that he won, so hooray

last weekend part 2

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 05:59:52 GMT

Actually my life is as good as it wasn't for a long time,
but the more I try to enjoy it, the more I fail.

My weekend will be pretty good,
Saturday we (which means Yelda, Lena, Tatjana, Julia and I) are planing to go shopping in Düsseldorf by train .
This will be great fun, we're always entertaining the other people in the compartment we're sitting in, no matter if they want or don't want to be entertained, because we're loud and we're laughing all the time at some funny things that happen when we're together.

last weekend

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 06:52:19 GMT

Not much has been going on. I've been working a lot, trying to get Amber to find a job in phoenix so we can have a fun time, and just other randomness. I wanna get my mom to come out with me to see the new Michael Moore movie Farhenheit 9/11 which a hated he is sucha lier . This weekend I gotta take my sister to camp. Eastern Illinois Univ all the way in the middle of some corn field. Fun. Yeah, this summer is uneventful so far.

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 07:30:02 GMT

So as I was getting ready to leave yesterday from work, I saw Bryan come in. I knew I saw his name and info on the cork board, but I thought he was going in for an interview. But no, yesterday was his first day. Poor guy, I heard Fridays are killer. I've only worked one night so I don't know. :( I don't get to work with any of the kitchen boys unless they come in during the day. Maybe he'll work today...I dunno. Hmmm. I work with Kristin and Bobbi today, that looks like major fun. I can't wait to actually go to work today...haha. Weird.

dentist day today

Fri, 09 Jul 2004 08:53:19 GMT

Today I have Alex here with me at work. We have to go to the dentist at 1:00 today. I have to have a root canal and Alex has a filling to get. We are both not worried about it because we know what it is like already. It is kinda nice to have Alex here with me today. I am finished with all my work and he is keeping me company and its nice.

Last night we got horrible thunderstorms and lightning. It was awesome. Spencer was in a state of emergency last night and then this morning. GOOD TIMES!!

I have to make this short today. I will write more later from home and let you know how the dentist went.

Adios!

i am to t histy to type

Wed, 07 Jul 2004 19:10:26 GMT

So yeah i had an interesting day, went down to the strip mall, went to the mall, pulled into rocketland to go there but then saw that they tore it down and theres nothing there but a tiny shitty jungle gym type thing. so then we went to my house, chilled there for like 15 minutes, then i heard steve on his fone in the kutchen saying something then he came u[p to me n said im gunna make you really happy in a few, ((cuz i was dying for em to come home n i was talking bout her all day haha wishing for her to come home)) then i was like emms home?.. and he said i was SMART!! ((me...smart? dont go good together)) so yeah we picked her up, went to the super chinese buffet, ate, went to the mall, got bracelettes n shit, then went n picke up her brother, chilled there for a few, then came back and wow im getting drunk hahaha. Gotta love the alcohol <33. anyways, enough rambling n mumbo jumbo. i guess im gunna go drink some more of my drink, then who knows, pass out? catch ya faggettes lata <3

oh yeah

Mon, 05 Jul 2004 19:15:05 GMT

I quit ;)
It's true. Not my job, don't get too excited. I quit one of my softball teams.
Ahhhh...I feel good about it though, so I know it was the right decision. So I was on 2 teams, the CIA team (whose season ended last night, unfortunately), and the dickhead team (whose season lasts through the beginning of August). I *really* enjoyed playing on the CIA team, we had a lot of fun and it was really relaxed. The dickhead team was "coached" (note: term used loosely) by a dickhead.

The evening started out on a bad note when I informed dickhead (dh) that unfortunately, I'd miss the game again next week because I'm being sent back to Alabama for work (and THAT'S another story). So he's really not very happy about that and informs me that I'll be designated hitter for the night (for the 3rd time, mind you) and he WAS going to play me next week. I got a little mouthy about it, I should have known right then and there the evening would not improve!

And it didn't. The team played badly, no doubt. There were lots of mistakes, but they were evenly distributed. And I sucked at bat 2 out of 3 times, so I had my own share. But he's just an ass, I've said this before. He starts throwing his glove around between innings, mumbling under his breath, yelling at players/the other team/the ump/etc. Finally, after he watched at least 2 balls go by that were about 4 inches from him (no effort to get them, just watched them go by), and after he had insulted just about everyone possible, I had some words for the man. And then we got into it ;) Woooooooo-eeeeeeeeeeeeee it was a good time.

The long and short of it is (too late?), I told him to lay off, no one wants or needs to be reprimanded like a 5 year old, and everyone makes mistakes INCLUDING his highness. He walked away for a minute, then came back saying it was "constructive criticism." I thought he was kidding..."Riiiiiggghhhhtt" and then he lost it again and started yelling. The guy next to me then leans over and says, "You know, it doesn't always come across that way," and the coach proceeded to start yelling at him. He then told me something like, "Well it'll be nice when you're in Alabama," that he'd enjoy my absence. Well you know, it's awfully hard to resist an invitation like THAT, so I said, "I can leave, I don't need this."
He responded, "Why don't you just go back to Alabama then" (and I think he told me to stay there ;)
"You want me to leave? I can leave, I'll leave right now and I won't be back"
"I don't care WHAT you do, LADY"
"Ok then...I'm done."

--exit left--

heh :) And then the guy who stood up for me came running after and said he was so excited I had voiced what everyone else had been thinking and then informed me that he and his wife had had enough also and they're going to form their own team "WITHOUT Nick, and you know...have FUN" (heh) and would I give them my phone and email. Hell yeah!

And normally I'd be upset about all that yelling and stuffe, but I feel GOOD! Woohoo! Tellin' off the man, YEAH!

It all ALMOST makes me feel better about having to go back to Alabama. Ok not really, but at least I have something else to think about for now :)

Have to go back to 'bama on Monday night, it's going to be a major zoo at the airport, not looking forward to it at all. I'll be there until Friday night. This time I at least got a car (due to the stalking incident the last time, I will not be walking anywhere).

Gonna miss da man, though.

This summer is whizzing by....
Off tomorrow to try to enjoy some of it.

you alwaysbe a phoene call away

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 08:50:37 GMT

ya..
things today were going just great until ben saw that i had john, neal, and kirk's numbers on my desk wall.. he got pissed and left..
he sent me a text msg. and was like: "we shouldnt date anymore" and that was it! too much pain for me...
i cried soo long and soo hard!
he means soo much to me but i cant figure out why he is the way he is and stuff like that.. riight.
If only half of u knew what exactly we have and how i truly feel.. i think u could sympathize.. otherwise dont waste ur breath or words and say: "awww... im sorry!" ya. u might be sorry and i know that u would be but like.. thing is u could NEVER know..
This isnt just sum attachment relationship like ive had in the past.. u know.. with casey and eric.. well, this one's more important to me and to end it now is like shooting me point blank in the fucking head!
So i called casey after all that..
he really wants me back..
i dont think i could ever go back to him tho!
i mean he was great but he let go too fast!
i miss him sometimes..

I miss all my friends!
I'd really like to hang out with all of u!
but u all have to call me...
or i can.. i just never get a chance to!
U guys are the greatest! and i really mean it!
despite the way my "b/f" thinks.. u guys are the shit in my life!
I dont think i's be the person that i am today without u all!
just wanted u to know that..
no matter what..
i <3 (heart) u guys! (and girls)
and thanks for always being there!

as for now..
i have a swim meet tonight that i MUST attend for the sake of my pathetic neighborhood team... so, ttyl! bye